Pantyliners and Decisions

So here's the short of it,
Pantyliners are a lifesaver! And I have to make a decision. I appreciate your continued prayers.

And here's the long
I saw my wonderful surgeon for a follow up on Friday morning. She says that I'm healing nicely and gave me the interpretation of the pathology from the surgery. When she looked at the awful problems I'm having with the surgical tape (even that paper stuff) and she gave me the best solution ever. Pantyliners! So I just cut the pantyliner to the size it needs to be - it's got the adhesive on the back of it to stick to my special bra and there we have it - a comfortable bandage to cover the incision spots and no tape to hurt my skin. Who would have known.

Decisions.
I've had an appointment with my Radiologist. He is very reluctant for me to have any additional surgical work done, because it will move the tissues around and he won't be able to target the spot that needs a radiation boost - that spot where the margin is only .5mm.

Lou, my wonderful son-in-law has been giving me good medical interpretations.
David, my doctor cousin, tonight, said "well, you know the thing about cancer is that it only takes one cell."

So there's a decision.
I know from out there, it probably seems pretty simple.
From here the confusion and difficulty is mostly about this.

I didn't picture this in my life to start out with. Once it was here, I made a plan and set out to get on with that plan and beat this thing. Well, even the plan isn't going the way I expected. There have been so many twists and turns and things that looked like one thing but turned into something else! Recently Elizabeth Edwards said something like, "I didn't picture my life this way, but here it is, and I have to live it like this; I don't have any other choice." So that's where I am.

In the meantime, my Dad had sugery this morning to take out his breathing tube and insert a tracheotomy and a peg feeding tube, as well as something called a green filter to prevent blood clots from getting to his heart and lungs. He looks so much better! We still have a long way to go - but Dad has always been determined!

So for tonight.

I'm thankful for the comfort of pantyliners!

I'm so grateful for the doctors and nurses that are taking such good care of Dad.